I'm a bit hesistant about writing this, cos it may be a coincidence. But again it may not be.
Coincidence #1.
Was in church today when I heard a song that sent tears welling up my eyes the moment I saw the lyrics on the projector screen.
Backtrack a week ago, it was worship during church service and it seemed a song was placed in my heart - one of my favourite tunes of all time - "There is none like You". And for some reason, I really felt like singing the song and was wondering whether God placed the song in my heart for a reason, and wondered if it was a song we would sing during service. But it didn't happened, and I just told myself I was being oversensitive.
But this week, coincidence or not, this song was sung in church! I had forgotten those thoughts from last week, but when I heard the song, I was reminded how this song was popped into my head last week..and as I heard this song, I felt that God was telling me He listens, He always listens, even to small wishes like these, and He answers...in His own time.
Coincidence #2.
I'm a pretty hygenic person by nature, and always feel a bit awkward with the manner bread is passed during Holy Communion every week. Cos there is a bun that goes around and everyone pinches a bit of the bread from the plate. That is bordering on my hygiene limits a little, but I brush it off by telling myself that it is just a more convenient way of passing bread since this church observes Holy Communion every Sunday, and since my stomach can be quite sensitive at time, I would pinch off only a miniscule bit each time. And that was something I would accept if I decided to make this the church I were to grow in.
But surprise today...the church swapped the bread to pre-cut separate pieces of dough! I was pleasantly surprised. It seemed that God knew about my reservation and made the swap on exactly the same day when He decided the song in my heart should be sang in church. I felt He wanted me to know that He is real and He is really real.
How do I know He is real? I just know..but sometimes, I get doubts, but I want to cling on to reminders like these to remember. Honestly, I fear commitment to church, but I know I need to overcome this if I need to move to a closer relationship with Him. I have some fears, some doubts...but I also know above all, if He really is real as He has shown himself to be, then He is more important than anything because it is my relationship with Him that will count ultimately.
There are some things placed in my heart that I don't dare to utter, cos I'm not sure if its just my own thinking or God's thoughts. When I was much younger, I used to envy those who could hear God and I wondered why God never speaks to me? A bit jealous with His seemingly partiality...considering all I have been through (although it probably pales in comparison to trials others have faced)...but I've learnt all things happen for a reason, and its not for me to question, but to persevere and to make the best of my circumstances.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts andyour minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:4-7
Coincidence #1.
Was in church today when I heard a song that sent tears welling up my eyes the moment I saw the lyrics on the projector screen.
Backtrack a week ago, it was worship during church service and it seemed a song was placed in my heart - one of my favourite tunes of all time - "There is none like You". And for some reason, I really felt like singing the song and was wondering whether God placed the song in my heart for a reason, and wondered if it was a song we would sing during service. But it didn't happened, and I just told myself I was being oversensitive.
But this week, coincidence or not, this song was sung in church! I had forgotten those thoughts from last week, but when I heard the song, I was reminded how this song was popped into my head last week..and as I heard this song, I felt that God was telling me He listens, He always listens, even to small wishes like these, and He answers...in His own time.
Coincidence #2.
I'm a pretty hygenic person by nature, and always feel a bit awkward with the manner bread is passed during Holy Communion every week. Cos there is a bun that goes around and everyone pinches a bit of the bread from the plate. That is bordering on my hygiene limits a little, but I brush it off by telling myself that it is just a more convenient way of passing bread since this church observes Holy Communion every Sunday, and since my stomach can be quite sensitive at time, I would pinch off only a miniscule bit each time. And that was something I would accept if I decided to make this the church I were to grow in.
But surprise today...the church swapped the bread to pre-cut separate pieces of dough! I was pleasantly surprised. It seemed that God knew about my reservation and made the swap on exactly the same day when He decided the song in my heart should be sang in church. I felt He wanted me to know that He is real and He is really real.
How do I know He is real? I just know..but sometimes, I get doubts, but I want to cling on to reminders like these to remember. Honestly, I fear commitment to church, but I know I need to overcome this if I need to move to a closer relationship with Him. I have some fears, some doubts...but I also know above all, if He really is real as He has shown himself to be, then He is more important than anything because it is my relationship with Him that will count ultimately.
There are some things placed in my heart that I don't dare to utter, cos I'm not sure if its just my own thinking or God's thoughts. When I was much younger, I used to envy those who could hear God and I wondered why God never speaks to me? A bit jealous with His seemingly partiality...considering all I have been through (although it probably pales in comparison to trials others have faced)...but I've learnt all things happen for a reason, and its not for me to question, but to persevere and to make the best of my circumstances.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts andyour minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:4-7
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